Hey guys. I haven’t written in a month which is far less than I ever hoped for this blog. It’s time, at least for a long while, for me to walk away from writing. I don’t have much time I’m willing to dedicate to the blog anymore between work, family, regular life, taking time for myself, graduate school and managing other aspects of my life which need focus right now. I’m working on not needing certainty in life on things, and so I can’t give any certainty on the future of this blog. I’ve decided to disengage from social media as much as possible except for managing accounts I need for my professional career. This means I am no longer, at this time, posting to Instagram or Facebook. I need to step away from the barrage of posts about my life, live my life and spend the time I would normally spend posting photos about my life, checking what everyone else is up to all the time, seeing if I “connected” with people through likes, etc. and refocus on what really matters – my relationship with God and those around me in a very real way.
I’ve mentioned this once before, but rarely discussed it because I refused to let it lead my life. That said, for anyone who is dealing with anxiety, OCD or any other disorder like I do – please just remember to turn to God. It’s hard to trust intuition and your heart, which everyone says to, when the disorder you have makes you doubt everything. That said, please remember to pray your way through. Worrying and compulsions only makes everything worst. Get help. It works. “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6. And remember, your thoughts are not God’s thoughts. Your ways are not God’s ways. God loves you and cares about you. Worry hinders our relationship and is a great way to doubt to sneak in and ruin it.
Open your hearts. Find your peace and work on letting go of uncertainty and not needing to “fix” things. For those of us with OCD, uncertainty about situations is the hardest pill to swallow. Remember to laugh at life including the ridiculousness that is OCD.
That said, I’m leaving this blog up so people can continue to read the past, and so I can have an archive of items. I will however be shutting down comments. Thank you for your comments and reading over the last few years.
I feel like I should put a joke in here to lighten things up, but instead I’ll encourage you to log off your computer, your social media, all of it – and go find a real laugh with a real human in real life. Get that belly hurting from laughing and share a moment.